My Heart Bleeds

My heart bleeds

When meadow larks no longer sing, and blue bell woods become a thing of memory…my heart bleeds.

When downlands and fields that once teemed with the living pulse of life, now lie dead and silent under concrete offices, leisure centres, and blocks of high rise flats…. my heart bleeds.

When beaches are lined with trash, dead fish and sea creatures choked with plastic, and smothered by discarded face masks… my heart bleeds.

When coyotes are gassed, wolves shot, bears trapped just for being alive, and the road to town is littered with dead turtles, birds, coons, skunks, deer and other wildlife …. my heart bleeds.


The curtain is falling

I’ve spent most of my life fighting for the rights of animals. I’ve seen some horrific cruelties that could only be carried out by monsters…and I have felt the pain, the helplessness, the soul rending depression of not being able to change things.

My heart has bled for a long time.

It’s impossible for us ‘carers’, to flip a switch and turn off our emotions and our pain. And, for some of my friends in animal rights, the pain was too much and they found release in drink, drugs and suicide.

I turned to spiritual reality for understanding…..

My beloved sister/daughter – the brown hare. How her sacrifice changed my perception of reality.

Read my article


A spiritual understanding

It was a cold, wet day in February, and we were out sabotaging the hare hunt. It was late in the afternoon; the hare was tired and the hounds were moving in. The police were present in numbers, hired by their masonic bosses to keep us coralled and under threat of arrest, if we tried to intervene.

The hare got caught in the corner of a field and as the hounds rushed towards her, she screamed and sounded like a baby. I was devastated, and the sound was ingrained in my memory. I felt sad for days.

I talked to Sir George about my feelings. To me, a scream is our instinctive reaction to attack, to vocalize our terror and pain, but in this case, he had a different perspective. One that was far from my thinking – and one that I questioned immediately, as we do when faced with information contrary to our programming.  The ‘yes, but!’ syndrome.


One life -one common soul

‘One common soul lives in the entire animal group. As your ten fingers are members of your hands, so are all wolves members of the wolf group soul.’ Rudolph Steiner

Sir George told me that the animal kingdom is based on mutual sacrifice. That it is an interdependent duality/reality that keeps balance in the natural world. What we have been conditioned to believe is cruel, red in tooth and claw is not true at all. Only man is cruel.

Predator and prey are spiritually linked, they are both sides of the coin of life. One cannot exist without the other. Spiritually or energetically, they are not separate entities, they are one. And, when a prey animal is injured or stressed it will automatically call the predator to finish it off.

It is our ignorance, conditioning and split brained duality that distorts our mirror of seeing.

I understood what Sir George had said intellectually, but it didn’t resonate in my heart as a knowing until years later.

Given the understanding

 I was living on the reservation, and one day we were out visiting our relatives, when I heard the same heart rending screams, the same cry, I had witnessed on that cold, wet day in February. A vision of the cornered hare flashed before my eyes, accompanied by feelings of rage, helplessness and heart hurt. I must have shown signs of distress because our host asked me what was wrong.  Turned out, it was his son trying out a coyote lure…whistles that are used to imitate the wailing squeals of wounded jackrabbits or hares…. screams that draw a predator.


Spiritual disappointment

Not long after, my experience with the coyote lure, I watched a short film called Nature by Numbers. The content of the video changed my way of thinking about nature…it wasn’t real or natural in the way I thought it to be. It was a construct, an intelligent design made of fractal geometry.

The understanding that creation was/is mechanized, and based on the Fibonacci spiral, the Golden Mean and Phi was a spiritual disappointment for me at the time. It knocked me for six!

I still don’t know why the understanding upset me so much. Perhaps it took the childhood wonder out of my life but like all revelation, it has led to a deeper understanding of the nature of reality.

For more information on the geometric, fractal reality that we live in, see my article


Who stole my energy? And where is it?

Nature is fractal geometry – and the question I asked my plants as they grew was – what powers you – gives you brilliant life?

Science tells us that we as a species only operate on 10% of our DNA – a fraction of our original instructions. They tell us that the other 90% is junk !?

The 10% that is available to us is our conscious awareness of self,  a narrow spectrum of experience, that resonates on our instincts, emotions, and carnal need/greed.

Its sum is the personality bubble of the I.

So where is the other 90% of our original instructions…. the powerhouse of our multi dimensional infinity?


The ten percenters

I don’t think there is any doubt that we are genetically modified organisms. Just think how much of our spiritual energy is missing from our awareness – 90% !

The 10% doesn’t give us much to operate with does it?  But perhaps it explains why we can’t access our third eye, and our crown ‘corona’ chakra. There is so much about Self that we don’t have a clue about.


Siphoned off

Could it be that the 90% of our missing multidimensional energy is being siphoned off and used to invigorate and enliven the bio-diverse, geometric creations found in nature. And, that self replicating biological software… bodies whether covered in skin, fur, feathers or scales, are deliberately engineered dna constructs designed to trap and vampirise Source energy.


All matter is evil

The Gnostics and other communities like the Cathars held the view that the world of form was created not by good but by evil. It may well be, that the god we have been indoctrinated or coerced to believe is loving and compassionate… is in truth a monster. A heartless geneticist…a vivisector who created all species and imprisoned them in a very narrow spectrum of visible light that we call the universe.

And before you dismiss this as ridiculous, ask yourself what diseased mind created the duck billed platypus?

And used our divine source code energy to bring it alive!



So how did we end up in duality?

I sense that we were once, non polarised walkers of infinity…then we were hijacked and separated into two beings by Lucifer/Zeus, the god of this fake creation. We are told in the bible, “Male and female, he created them.” We were genetically split into two polarities, two sexes. The Zulu shaman talks about this event in his talks with David Icke.

When our awareness became dual – a separated reality appeared, the third dimension of outside and inside, up and down, and birth and death.

Do you see this?


Why were we separated?

Quote from Robert Monroe-Far Journeys.

‘From experience, the Collectors have evolved an entire technology with complimentary tools for the harvesting of the Loosh from the Type 4M [i.e. human] units. The most common have been named love, friendship, family,greed, hate, pain, guilt, disease, pride, ambition, ownership, possession, sacrifice–and on a larger scale, nations, provincialism, wars, famine, religion, machines, freedom, industry, trade, to list just a few. Loosh production is higher than ever before…

Robert Monroe the father of out of body experiences called this vampirisation The Loosh Rote. Se my article

It would seem that the parasite feeds on the emotional energy of the ten percent which is sense bound consciousness, so perhaps it is time to turn inwards, focus on spiritual reality.  New frequencies are flooding our awareness and many can feel a change in energy as earth enters her time of spiritual acceleration.We are in a time of transfiguration and deep soul experiences as we connect with the essential essence within all life.

I write about my spiritual lessons and understandings in the hope that they will be helpful, resonant and thought provoking for you, my reader.

Be excited….


What is the knocking? What is the knocking at the door in the night?

Is it somebody wants to do us harm. No, no, it is the three strange angels.

Admit them, admit them.


Until next time. Stay centred and in love with your life.


Stay Tuned…


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Elva Thompson was born in England in 1947 and moved to Rosebud Lakota reservation in 1987. She is the author of the Heartstar Series; Book One: The Key made of Air, Book Two: The Gates to Pandemonia, and Book Three: Walking In Three Worlds. Her other interests include organic gardening, ancient phonetic languages, sonic sound and their application in the healing arts. She is also a medical intuitive and teaches sonic re-patterning using sound, colour, and essential oils. Elva Thompson is on Amazon Author Central @




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