The Light in the Darkness
“Our soul is an expression of the universe.”
In My Time
I have practiced sobriety for over 16 years. Before that, it was a decade since I had altered my experience with substances. In fact, most of my life has been lived in abstinence. Over the last 30 years, partaking in alcohol or drugs was not extreme enough to identify as a personal issue. When I was 24, I woke up one morning wrecked from the night before and chose to have a different experience. Yet, it was not precipitated by circumstance, guilt or shame, rather a need for clarity. I had my time as a professional from my teens into my mid-twenties. It was then I shifted into being, consciousness, creativity, evolution and transformation.
From the Darkness
I was 9 when my parents separated. Divorce was not a common occurrence, nor was it in my purview of understanding. Though I rolled with it the best a young person could, it altered the course of my life and had its evident adversities. Beyond the broken pieces of what family was to me then, I was not aware enough for the darkness I would encounter with an emotionally, mentally and physically abusive stepfather. However, it was not the fear, pain and suffering I endured with him, it was the malevolence that distorted and manipulated his feelings, thoughts and actions. My initial introduction to evil occurred when I was 13.
Into Shadow
Being under the influence into my early adulthood fostered a personal, internal and external environment rife with obscenity and obscurity, one which enabled my dark odyssey. More than I could comprehend, let alone recall, I was confronted by numerous denizens of darkness. At first, I was energetically powerless in the diverse, various dimensions of my experiences, victimized by my deficiency to exist beyond the terrestrial. Over the years, I established my proficiency to transform spiritual abuse into universal experience. Until one evening, I faced the evil that had stalked me all my life; the part of my soul I enabled with my oblivion.
Something Wicked…
My first encounter with my darkness transpired in a dreamscape of my childhood home. I was walking through the yard with other children when suddenly I found myself inside the living room. There was a force pounding on the door, as I peered through a window to see what it was. The next instant, I was laying on the floor in the family room as an entity relentlessly thrashed me; while its crawling minions circled, awaiting my demise. With all the energy I could muster, I projected my personal power upon them. The minions shrieked in horror as they evaporated into oblivion, while the entity disappeared in the wake of my expression.
“Our evil is empowered by our oblivion.”
Existential Slavery
How we perceive darkness is a figment of our denial. We simply cannot be with the realization and trauma of our malevolence; since we fail to accept, comprehend and identify our capacity for malice. Our personal evil abides in the shadows of our being, pulling our strings, pushing our buttons and altering our universal resonance with its agenda to control, distort, dominate, manipulate and pervert. Given our preoccupation with egocentricity, we engage and invest our attention, energy and focus into the simulation of social reality. We do not fulfill a life; we serve a sentence of existential enslavement.
Human Malevolence
Evil is an efficient, innovative and optimizing force in the universe. However, it cannot source its own power, so it employs devices of deception, illusion and oblivion to provoke us into acquiescing our own through our reactivity. It mines our hostile and toxic expressions, converting them into an applicable and palatable energy; leaving us depleted, disempowered and diminished. We are conditioned into a vicious cycle of victimization. This seizure of our personal power syphons the energy from our soul, corrupting it into a dense and primal force, transmuting our universality into virtuality.
Black Fire
My latest encounter with my darkness occurred last year. After I drifted from awareness, I shifted into a diverse dimension of my bedroom. I could sense something sinister emerging from the shadows. I stood to meet the entity, as it materialized from the void. It glared at me with pure malice, smirking with eyes aflame in sheer disdain. A black fire accented its ominous shape amidst the entrancing and pulsing evanescence of evil in the space. Its fiery fist pierced my heart with the objective to plunge my soul into oblivion. In a retaliatory expression of resistance, I broke its control over me, as it vanished into shadow.
The Greatest Evil
Universality is powerful, purposeful and truthful. By its very nature, it is all encompassing, empowering our being with universal energy. It is the embodiment of our soul. We primarily exist in a stasis of density. When we experience universality, we often misinterpret its distinct resonance with fear. Given our conditioning to the gravity of human existence, everything beyond the terrestrial is blindly observed as impending peril. Fear is a racket we run on ourselves to evade our universality. Our egocentricity deceives us into believing we are merely blood, bone and flesh. Our greatest evil is sacrificing our soul to enable our fear.
In the Mouths of Madness
Five years ago, I was camping in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. Laying in my tent, I drifted from awareness and found myself in a darkened room. An electrical current was resonating through the crown of my head, spreading peculiar sensations throughout my being. I attempted to move my hand through the wall yet could not escape. In the distance, I heard people around the campfire laughing and talking. Following their voices, I found a door in the room. As my hand passed through, countless claws reached out to wrench me into the darkness. After freeing myself from their grasp, numerous teeth bit into my arms and hands. With a focused expression of willpower, I shifted out of the melee and returned to my tent.
The Light in the Darkness
As much as we misinterpret universality, we misunderstand evil. Our personal and social stigmas establish our erroneous perceptions, accelerating our fear into a fever pitch of anxiety, delusion and lunacy. Evil appears to be omnipresent in social reality, since we enable it with our egocentricity, ignorance, obsession and oblivion. Absolute light is kindled from extreme darkness. In essence, from the darkest evil, comes the brightest light. This transcendental shift empowers our universality. Evil is not a force to fear. It is an enigmatic vibration to be transformed into a resonant frequency. Our common destiny is to embody our soul as an expression of the universe. Everything else is simply evil.
“Universality is the light in the darkness.”
